Forever Thankful

I faintly remember the good times I had as a young child. Particularly because of two best friends I had. One boy and one girl. I had such great times with them separately, because they didn't know each other. That was before my long stint with homelessness. I may not remember the girl's name but you remind me of her. Not in looks or personality but in importance. Losing you as a friend would be just as devastating as it was when I lost contact with them. We can joke around no holds barred about anything with no care in the world. You're always worried about saying the wrong thing or saying or revealing something too weird. Nothing you say or do will make me walk away from our friendship. I enjoy your company more than anyone else's, even if it's only behind a brightly lit screen of a electronic device. You're a rare gem worth holding onto and I know I would have an extremely hard time finding someone anything like you. If this was high school I would be so scared to talk to you. I seem to be nervous around people whose company I enjoy the most. There are indeed times where I wish I had talked to someone but was too scared to. You give me the same feelings of joy and excitement I had back in those childhood days. I associate you with positivity in my life. I will always cherish, be thankful and be grateful for your existence in my life. You mean a lot to me in more ways than one. You may think you're insignificant in this world. But in my world you are part of the air that keeps me breathing. You're one of the best things that has happened to me. And for that I am forever thankful.

I wonder if I will ever find a more intriguing person than you. A day does not pass by where I do not wonder what you are doing or what your ducklings are up to. I worry about you a lot. So many negative things in your life it would drive most people crazy. I know there are a lot of things that have happened to you that I know you would never want your daughters to go through and so do I. It's hard to live when you are simply trying to survive. From a divorce to a low paying job to a sister who seems to be trying to take over your motherly duties to the point where your children get upset when she leaves. It must be all taking a toll on you. I know you dream of much better days and I hope those dreams become reality. I am glad I'm not one of the people in your life making things for you more stressful and negative. I'm glad I can provide a zone where you do not have to worry about me being rude or negative towards your situations. I want to be a responsible friend. One who does not judge but listens. Comments you where positive comment is needed. But then again I would be commenting your beauty to the point where you would think I am obsessed. I hope you do not mind that I think of you in a sexual manner because my testosterone goes crazy when I do think of you. I have thought of you in many ways that no other woman has had the honor of, in my mind. Your beauty is no fluke. Which is made even more evident when portrayed side by side with your sister. You did not deserve the treatment your ex showed you. You did not deserve to be deserted by him for a woman who is nothing compared to you. She shipped her kids off to another state just to be with him which is something I know you'd never do. It was hard enough for you just to leave your oldest, Nadia, behind and I know how happy you are to have her back. I at least hope he thinks about them in some capacity. I know it hurts you deeply that he has basically turned his back on you and your children. Men know no bounds when it comes to cruelty. I hope the day comes where you no longer shed tears of sorrow for the past. I feel like it is my duty to show you that not all men are that way. That there are people, like me, who care about you and your children's health and safety. Even if you do not think so or realize it, you are doing a lot better than a lot of women in your position. I will be your friend for as long as there is breath in my lungs and a beating heart in my chest. You are a worthy friend, companion, and mother who deserves the best. Few will ever know the real you and I am so proud to be one those few you have chosen to let into her life. I will always cherish that and know that I will never betray you unlike others have in the past. You deserve the best out of life and the people around you. You are an enigma like no other. Sex appeal that whips men like me into a frenzy. I hope I'm not the only guy who writes about you or admires you. I hope I'm not the only guy who appreciates how hard you work and the sacrifices you have made. You are truly a marvel worth beholding that no amount of darkness can cover up.